When He Fills Our Hearts

We feel God working in our hearts. Going through this process so far has been full of peace. Getting to see Him there with us has been so uplifting. It started with the phone call the same day we received our first envelope. Then it was us sitting in class on our second day. Bare with me as I explain this to all of you. We were sitting in class and a picture came up on the screen. Our instructor just had this picture on the screen, waiting for all of us to get back from break. So that we could move on to the next session in our book. I'll show you the picture.

This picture means a lot to me. When I lived in Carlisle, PA I volunteered at the Church office. I worked on the bulletin. I had to find a picture every week to go with our sermon. I remember the week I used this same photo. It took me all week to find the right picture and when I seen this photo, I connected with it for some reason. I would think about that photo for some reason or another. Well on Sunday He told me why. Jason seen the photo first on Sunday. He caught my attention and pointed to the screen. I seen it and my heart flutter again. I stopped talking and just stared at the photo. Peace just came over the both of us. When the movies we were watching or the material we were going over came to be really hard on my heart. I would think back to that photo and pray.

Those movies were so hard to watch. I pray for all the little lives out there that are going through anything that hurts them or their hearts.

Love,
Jason & Christina

Catching Up

I have some catching up to do. I really need to start staying on top of this. I'm happy to say that as of June 5th we have officially started the process. We have to take some classes to start with and fill out lots of paperwork. We've done some paperwork already but still have more to do. We've talked to our Social worker Mark and he seems very nice. When we called and left a message, a couple of times already to ask questions, he's called us right back. He's taken time to answer us and talk to us to try and get to know us a little better. We are very thankful he's been so great.

Jason and I are so excited it's funny. We even took a picture this morning of us right before we got out of the car. I asked Jason if he thought that was funny of me to do and he said "yes". I said why, "we'd take a picture of me and us getting our first ultra sound, what's the difference"! LOL It's true.

We both enjoyed the class and think it's very informative. You get so much information in these classes. I remember doing something similar in Carlisle, PA when we went through the process there. It's great splitting up in groups and meeting new people. We are 1 of 6 couples adopting. There are 15 couples total in our class.

We are praising God as we take another step in this Journey. He's given us so much to be thankful for. Most of all we are thankful for the peace in our hearts. It's always so easy to listen to your head, but we know that's not were He is.

Plus I get to go shopping for some baby and toddler stuff. They want us to have different sizes and things on hand. We won't know when or how old the little one will be. Better safe than sorry, not having PJ's or clothes for them for a few days. It's a little hard watching the movies in class and see what they might be going through in their homes. Our hearts go out to the children who are out there now wanting someone to just love them.

Love,

Jason & Christina

Our Next Step

Our next step has begun for us. On Thursday May 20th I wanted to get home to meet the dog sitter and give him a key. I stopped by the mail box to grab the mail and I seen it. The white envelope with the green writing: Department of Social and Health Services. My heart fluttered a little. I couldn’t wait to get home and open it up with Jason. When I walked thru the door I had the biggest smile on my face. Our application had made it safe and sound. It must have because before I put the envelope in the mail I kissed it and said a small prayer. I felt my heart beating fast waiting to open the letter. Jason tore it open and I laughed because I acted like a baby or child was going to fall out of that envelope. It was an application to have our finger prints done. We sighed a little. I don’t know what we expected. So, we went online and scheduled an appointment for the 12th (Sat). In the middle of me scheduling our dog sitter came by and we got to talk to him a little about our Journey. He must of thought I was a little nuts. I couldn’t stop smiling when he got here. Then I told him the reason and that’s when we starting talking about our Journey. When he left we were still on cloud 9. I thanked God for guiding our special envelope home and filling our hearts with peace. About 10 minuets later the phone rang and it was Social Services confirming our class attendance. I honestly wanted to cry when I hung up the phone. I called for Jason upstairs and told him who had called and he couldn’t believe it either. I stopped on the stairs and praised Him. I was filled with peace just getting our envelope in the mail, then with the phone call I felt so loved by my Father. It was a great start to a great weekend. We left on Friday to Seattle to spend a weekend celebrating our Marriage. After 13 awesome years, we feel very blessed to have such a wonderful marriage. We can’t wait to start our classes and meet everyone that will help us get where we need to be. I thank all of you for your prayers and support.

Love,
Jason & Christina

Our Path

Jason and I have been doing a lot of praying and talking. We feel the Lord has guided us to our decision not to do IVF in the Fall. Instead we feel He is leading us to Foster to Adopt. We are very excited about this. We went to an orientation class they offered. We sat for 3 hours, lots of information and were given a folder full of paperwork and an application. We are currently filling out our paperwork & application as you read this. In the State of Washington they require you to take 32hrs of P.R.I.D.E. training classes. So, on June 5th we will have our first class. Our classes are every Sat & Sun in June. Sometimes I get a feeling of taking to many turns on our Journey, like we say one thing then turn and say something & do something else. My heart feels so unsure when I listen to my head and not turn to the Lord to stop and listen. Well we stopped and listened. We prayed and both came to the decision together. For those of you who know us, we have a habit of coming to a decision together. Sometimes on the same day or same time. We truly feel blessed to have that connection.



I want to Praise the Lord today. He has done some incredible healing in my heart. In the past couple of days and a few more to follow, I have an opportunity to babysit a 3mo old baby girl. I am praising the Lord because I don't feel a tug in my heart where my "Mommy" part is. Now don't get me wrong. I WANT to be a "Mommy" and I know that He has a plan for us. What I'm saying is I can go home at the end of the day and not cry. I'll be with this precious baby for 1 more week. It's amazing to me, believe me when I say this. In the past when I would go home from babysitting I would be upset. Knowing that when I got home my arms would be empty, along with our home. No laughter, no running around of little ones. These last couple of years He has healed us. We are at such peace. Like I said, "I want to be a Mommy". I don't need to give birth to a child to become one. There are so many little one's out there that need a home. Well we have one and it's filled with lots of love to give. So, we ask that you pray with us on our exciting journey.

Jason & Christina

Looking forward to 2010!!!!

Our 2009 in a nut shell!!!

We were able to look into expanding our family this year. With the Lord in our hearts as we took each step. Trying 3 IUI's this year and even though we didn't get pregnant. We still have our Faith and Love in Him.

Knowing that this blog isn't only about our infertility, but also about our ride with the Lord. So we decided to start blogging more.

I've done a lot of traveling back and forth this year.

Being there to see Taryn walk into her first classroom. Watching her and Sande get ready for her 1st day of school.

Moving into a new home. Spending time in Cannon Beach for my Birthday. Finding a great place to sneak off to for dinner. Great place to do some hiking and picnics.

Taking each day the Lord gives us and making the most out of it. We've been taking small drives around the area and embracing the beauty of what the Lord has given us. Sitting and watching the waterfalls and eating our lunch.

I was given a great gift this year. A ticket to fly to North Carolina to spend time with Aimee & the kids. We had a lot of fun. Definitely a vacation I'll never forget. The hike that had me face my biggest fear. A Bear. It was a crazy 1 1/2 hour hike back to the car. LOL...You had to be there!

Ending our year and beginning our 2010 with the loss of my Grandma. We called her Nana. She's was the best Nana we could have asked the Lord for. She loved all of us with the true being of her heart. I was able to be there to experience my culture when a love one passes. Spending one last night with your loved one. Then 9 days of prayer. On the last night sharing a great fest with your family & friends.

We are waiting to see where our ride takes us next.